Thursday, 7 June 2012

I swear I'm still here

So.... yeah. I wrote all that blurb about 6 months ago on how I was gonna turn my life around and become wonderful and blog like a mad thing and so on and so forth, all with the rabid enthusiasm of a well meaning new-years-resolutionee, and then what happened? Nothing much. Quelle surprise.

Let's try that again, shall we?

I'm not going to bother writing out 6 months worth of updates, because I'd get overwhelmed and give up half way and I won't remember half of it anyway. So here's the short short version.

Basically, Dad's had the all clear on his cancer. Mum's retired from work. DH is still at his job and doing OK. DS is growing like a weed and costing me a fortune in new clothes. My job has rejigged itself somewhat and is less of a trial, though probably just temporarily, not that I'm complaining about even just a short break from tearing out my hair. I've also had a great review from work, which is good but pointless since we can't have pay rises this year. Money is shit, we owe too much, and I'm trying to sort it out without getting overwhelmed (not easy).

As to all those new year resolutions, well they weren't too pointless after all. I didn't do as much as I'd hoped but I didn't sit around picking my nose either. Here's a summary:

Body - my plans to work out got derailed pretty early. Lots of stuff happened and I never seemed to get time or energy to go on the running machine, which was always covered in DH's washing and I could never be bothered to keep moving it all. Bah. Never mind, I haven't put weight on or got any LESS fit, and last week DH moved the treadmill down to the living room for me so hopefully I can get back on the wagon there and actually do some running. Maybe.
Food - I didn't become a wonder woman of perfect meals and healthy healthness. I still eat way too much junk. But I have made steps in the right direction. I have stopped having sandwiches for dinner every night because I'm too tired or stressed to cook something decent. I've reduced the amount of crap I eat significantly. Still need to do more, but I'm happy with my progress so far. Onwards and upwards!
Skin - this is where I've made most progress. In the last 6 months I've managed to cure myself of all the cystic acne that was plaguing me, and probably 75% of the blackheads. I still have some way to go but honestly I'm so pleased with how much better my skin looks already - it's the clearest it's been for YEARS.
Girlieness - I've done pretty well here too. I've made a lot more effort with my clothes and have rediscovered how good it feels to wear bright and cheerful colours, jewellery and nice make up. I haven't managed to wear too many skirts, but mostly that's because it's been completely freezing most of the time and/or I haven't had the right shoes. Why is it so hard to find nice shoes at the moment? But I have at least upgraded my jeans to nicer ones and when we did get some nice weather I worked the dresses and skirts like a BAWSE. Also, I discovered the joys of eyebrow waxing bars!

Anyway there's lots more but we won't worry about that now. Gonna just focus on the future instead. Watch this space :)

Wednesday, 11 January 2012

I'm still alive!

So I kind of forgot about this blog for a bit... things got really mad around here, what with my dad being sick, and Christmas, and some other stuff that I won't bore you with because, well, it's over and it'd depress you (and me). I didn't feel like writing for a while but my mojo seems to be coming back now, yay :)

It's a new year so I'm gonna get back into the swing of things.

I thought I'd start by posting my new year's resolutions. I'm kind of rubbish at these normally because I tend to set all these unrealistic goals and then forget about them because they're too hard. This year I'm going to try and be a bit nicer to myself and I might actually stand a chance of sticking to them!!

1. Body. 

I'm not holding out any hope of magically getting a body like a celebrity here, or turning myself into Mrs Fitness UK - and at 9 stone, I'm not exactly overweight either but it'd be nice if I was a bit more toned and had fewer lumpy bumpy bits. According to the chart, healthy weight for my age and height is between 8 and 10 stone, so I'm gonna aim for 8.5 stone (maybe a bit less) and work out as much as I can. I have a treadmill and an exercise bike that the Mr got me for Xmas so that's a good start. Resolution number one is to work out and to post about my progress here.

2. Food.

I pretty much eat all the wrong things and don't really put too much effort into making sure I eat healthy stuff. I skip meals, then fill up on sandwiches and crisps. It's not especially good for me and if I'm gonna work out more, I'm going to need the right fuel. So resolution number two is to eat better, and to blog about it here. There will be vegetables. And fruit.

3. Skin.

Since I went on the depo (must be nearly 2 years ago now, doesn't time fly?) things have been really great - no more 14 week long periods, feeling crappy all the time and collapsing from anaemia, which can only be a plus! Originally I had no side effects from the jab, but  these last few months my skin has changed. Sorry if this is TMI but I suddenly have tons of blackheads on my forehead and jawline and I'm also getting some cystic acne that quite frankly is a pain in the arse. The doctor says it's probably because of the depo, but there's no way I'm coming off it yet since a few spots is a small price to pay for not having all the troubles I used to have. Sooooo instead, new year's resolution no. 3 is to take better care of my skin and hopefully get it back to normal. This means drinking water (yuck), cutting back on coffee (sob), and making the effort to cleanse it and treat it properly. (Makes me sound like a minger who doesn't wash, doesn't it? I swear I do. I just haven't been doing it the right way or using the right things). I'm going to put regular updates on here so I can keep track of whether or not it's working.

4. Girlieness.

I've got into a bit of a rut when it comes to what I wear; it's too easy to think 'aw it doesn't matter, it's just work/I'm just staying home' and slinging on a pair of old jeans and some crappy top with a hole in it yet again. This year I'm going to try and make a bit more of an effort to rediscover my inner girlieness!
I'll be trying to wear skirts and dresses and nice trousers and so on instead of the same few boring things worn to death all the time, plus I'm going to make more effort with my jewellery, accessories, make up and perfume and so on. I may just be going to work or out to the supermarket but that doesn't mean I have to look crap while I do it.. if you look nice, you feel nice. I might even pluck up the courage to put pictures on here; be kind!!

Anyway there they are, my resolutions for 2012 - wish me luck and watch this space!